22nd, of January 02008
1:43 pm


Up at 7:59 am. HAd an appointment with the head Dr. at 8:30.
So I shut off the alarm and went back to sleep intending to get upin 15 minuets.
Fifteen mimuets later the far to loud door bell is rung.
I get up pull up my pants in as dignified a manner while rushing at the same time.
Wanted to get to the door befor it it was pressed into sounding off again.
I failed of course.
There answering my prayer to get up in time was the women who came tocheck the gas meter.
Got layered up and headed out for my appointment, the sun facing me as I walked eastward. The redish rays
pouring into my eyes.
I wondered what the lizard like fragment buried at the core of my brian was responding to this.
It was the closest to my seeing a sunrise in a few years.
During my chat with the counsoler the word "mindfullness" was mentioned.
Been hearing and reading that term mentioned a lot for the last 4 days.
Been a state of awareness I have been trying to cultivate for years now.
"Mindfullness": The hot heads holy grail.
Two meinuets left before I step away from this entry and get focused on todays radio broadcast.
Last night, someones 21st birthday: arrive in time for a gane of four square, while the beastie boys provide the soundtrack,
then off to the bar to arrive one minuet before midnight.
Good times hanging out while I discuss concepts of chilvary with a friend.
Followed by,
Hanging later with the birthday contingent.
A few concerned looks from friends.
I think I need to snap out of this moodiness.
"Are you feeling OK." I say ,
"Yea, I'm good."
and am feeling better though distracted.
I say my goodnights explaining I need to get up at 8:30.

"Cool," Tony responds.
"I'll be sure to make a lot of noise when we get back."

"Don't forget to flash the lights on and off a lot." I advise.



Wednesday 23rd of January 02008 1:34 pm


Started a new routine yesterday to wake myself up.
Used to get up dressed and make some coffee.
Now
I wake up get dressed and leave to a friend's place
where I have coffee.

Not much but the break in routine has improved my mood.
It also fulfills the request made by said buddies who missed the presence
of my nekid ass in the morning.

Last week began reading "Blood Clots in the Mainstream; Selected Tour Journals From the Snake-Pit of Punk Rock Retail" by a Mr. Rob Santello.

The book is a collection of journal entries and transcriptions of stream of consciousness observations
made into a tape recorder, e-mails and a couple of mailed and and unmailed letters.
These were made while Rob was selling merchandise for the band The Bouncing Souls in the the autumn of 1997 to the autumn of 1999.
It's a fun read and Rob develops his writing style quickly.
It also proves that the more you write the better a writer you become.
Only if your're a writer of course.

I found myself stopping my reading so as to savor for a a few mimuets at least the descriptions Mr. Santello comes up with. They are as illuminating as
a wooden match in a dark loud bar followed by the fragrance of sulpher.
I think it's still in print and was put out by Chunksaah Records: www.chunksaah.com.


This past Sunday I began reading "The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment" by a Mr. Eckhart Tolle.
This text is helping me to get focused although I'll be buying several colored pens to do some editing out of a bit of New Age Bull Shit that has already sprung up.
As an example
on page 20, the author states that mindfulness as well as making you more alert
"...also raises the vibrational frequency of the energy field that gives life to the physical body."
There is to my knowledge no Vibrational Frequency Energy Field Monitor.
(Nor a Vibrational Frequency Energy Field Detector, Scanner, or Analyzer.) However,
it is not just that no Energy Field that gives life to the physical body has ever been proven empirically.
It's it has not been proven and there are people
that truly believe that it exists!
I refer to this as the belief in "Positive False-hoods".
My personal experience has shown that believing in things that are not true,
even things that seem positive, good, or complimentary,
lead to mostly negative results.
It does have good advice for developing a sense of "Mindfulness": being aware of how you are feeling,
why you're feeling that way and being conscious of the moment you are in, instead of
dwelling on the past.

A buddy in jail sent it to me and he says it has helped him a lot.
However, to say tell me to accept something I cannot prove for myself like, the Earth revolving around the sun, global warming, or that Ron Paul is an android programmed to conquer the planet is asking too much from a person living in the twenty-first century.




Saturday, 26th of January, 2008


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Caught with a Bag of Weed? It Could Cost You More Than You Think

By Paul Armentano,
AlterNetPosted on January 26, 2008, Printed on January 26, 2008 http://www.alternet.org/story/74511/




What's the current price for a bag of weed? According to the latest figures from the FBI, the human cost is roughly 739,000 a year.That's the number of American citizens arrested in 2006 for possessing small amounts of pot. (Another 91,000 were charged with marijuana-related felonies.) The figure is the highest annual total ever recorded, and is nearly double the number of citizens busted for pot fifteen years ago.Those arrested face a multitude of consequences, primarily determined by where they live. For example, most Californians charged with violating the state's pot possession laws face little more than a small fine. By contrast, getting busted with a pinch of weed in Ohio will cost you your driver's license for at least six months. Move to Texas -- well, now you're looking at a criminal record and up to 180 days in jail. Or if you happen to be a first-time offender, possibly a stint in court-mandated 'drug rehab' (one recent study reported that nearly 70 percent of all adults referred to Texas drug treatment programs for weed were referred by the courts), probation, and a hefty legal bill. And don't even think about getting busted in Oklahoma, where a first time conviction for minor pot possession can net you up to one year in jail, or up to ten years if you're found guilty of a second offense. Thinking of growing your own? That'll cost you a $20,000 fine, and -- oh yeah -- anywhere from two years to life in prison.Yes, you read that right -- life in prison.Of course, not everyone busted for weed receives jail time. But that doesn't mean that they don't suffer significant hardships stemming from their arrest -- including (but not limited to): probation and mandatory drug testing, loss of employment, loss of child custody, removal from subsidized housing, asset forfeiture, loss of student aid, loss of voting privileges, and the loss of certain federal welfare benefits such as food stamps.And yes, some offenders do serve prison time. In fact, according to a 2006 Bureau of Justice Statistics report, 12.7 percent of state inmates and 12.4 percent of federal inmates incarcerated for drug violations are incarcerated for marijuana offenses. In human terms, this means that there are now about 33,655 state inmates and 10,785 federal inmates behind bars for violating marijuana laws. (The report failed to include estimates on the percentage of inmates incarcerated in county jails for pot-related offenses.)In fiscal terms, this means that taxpayers are spending more than $1 billion annually to imprison pot offenders.Yet this billion dollar price tag only estimates the financial costs on the 'back end' of a marijuana arrest. The criminal justice costs to taxpayers -- such as the man-hours it takes a police officer to arrest and process the average pot offender -- on the 'front end' is far greater, with some economists estimating the financial burden to be in upwards of $7 billion a year. Naturally, as the annual number of pot arrests continues to increase (according to the latest FBI data, marijuana arrests now constitute 44 percent of all illicit drug arrests), these costs are only going to grow larger.There are alternatives, of course -- options that won't leave this sort of human and fiscal carnage in its wake, and that won't leave entire generations believing that the police are an instrument of their oppression rather than their protection.'Decriminalization,' as first recommended to Congress in 1972 by President Nixon's National Commission on Marihuana and Drug Abuse, called for the removal of all criminal and civil penalties for the possession, use, and non-profit distribution of cannabis. Such a policy, if adequately implemented, would eliminate the bulk of the human and fiscal costs currently associated with enforcing pot prohibition.A second option, 'regulation,' would also significantly slash many of society's prohibition-associated fiscal and human costs. Legalizing the commercial sale and use of cannabis in a manner similar to alcohol, with state-mandated age controls and pot sales restricted to state-licensed stores, could also potentially raise billions of added dollars in tax revenue while simultaneously bringing an end to the more egregious and adverse black-market effects of the plant's criminalization -- such as the production of pot by criminal enterprises and its clandestine cultivation on public lands.Would either option be perfect? No, probably not. ('Decriminalization,' for instance, might indirectly encourage pot use; 'regulation' might not entirely eliminate the black market sales of pot.) But how can continue with the status quo? Since, 1990, law enforcement have arrested over 10 million Americans -- more than the entire population of Los Angeles county -- on pot charges. Yet, according to federal figures, both marijuana production and use are rising. Isn't it time we began looking at ways to address the marijuana issue that move beyond simply arresting and prosecuting an inordinate amount of otherwise law-abiding Americans? Or must we wait until another 10 million citizens are arrested before our state and federal politicians find the courage to begin this discussion?Paul Armentano is the deputy director for NORML and NORML Foundation in Washington, DC.© 2008 Independent Media Institute. All rights reserved.View this story online at: http://www.alternet.org/story/74511/